On Wednesday, May 11th, we said our final goodbyes to our dearest pup, Sophie. As many of you know, she was diagnosed with an Adrenal Tumor back in February and after what was supposed to be a surgery to remove the tumor and continue on life per usual, we found out the tumor on the gland was in fact Cancerous and had already begun to spread to her Liver. We were shocked and devastated. I don’t think I’ve cried so much in such a short amount of time, but as she recovered from surgery and started to get “healthy” we tried to pack in as much as we could into whatever time she had left with us. We didn’t know if it would be days/weeks/months but we knew it could never have been enough.
I didn’t know how long I’d need before I could write a post about our Sophie-and as it’s now June, and baby three is due any day, I felt it was time.
Maciej and I brought Sophie home with us when we went on a spring break vacation to the Bahamas back in 2006. She was a stray potcake on the island and let’s just say that our relationship was most likely not going to continue unless M supported my impulsive decision to bring her home with us. The minute I laid eyes on her I knew she was ours.
When we got her back to New York City-we had a lot of work on our hands. Sophie was covered in ticks (we didn’t have to worry about Lyme because it wasn’t in the Bahamas), she had several parasites and was not used to anything about city life. It took a couple of weeks but soon we had her all cleaned up, healthy and learning how to potty on the sidewalk like a proper NYC pup (well, sort of). M and I quickly realized the world of city pups was a world unto its own. We brought her everywhere with us (the J.Crew on 15th street was a favorite spot for extra pets and attention)and she loved every second of it. Whether it was stirring up trouble at the dog runs (where she thought she ruled, even at only 10lbs) and just lounging in our apartments. She moved with us to all our different apartments in the city and adjusted to her new surroundings with ease each time.
Sophie was the most loving, laid back dog. She was always happy at home with us just lounging and when it was her time to play with other dogs at the dogs runs or out and about, she knew how to have fun (usually by making sure she was the one having the MOST fun.)
Sophie put up with a LOT! She lived in a tiny apartment and didn’t always get as much outdoor time as we would’ve loved to give her every day but she never made a problem for us.
I never thought it would be possible to not give Sophie 150% attention but as I was warned, it happens when that first baby comes along. But Sophie welcomed our first child, Ellery, home with warm curiosity and assurance that we could make it all work.
We up and left NYC and moved to CT before Ev was born-and Sophie took it in stride-saying goodbye to all her besties from the run and her favorite dog walker, Burt. She traded city life for a full backyard to sunbathe as she pleased.
She was always such a good girl-taking it all in stride and just happy to enjoy the sun and us, even if it meant taking a backseat to these little beings that had come along (they did give her lots of snacks :)
I miss her everyday. She was my best buddy at home-keeping me company all these years since I stopped working in an office. We would take long walks while I was pregnant with Ellery up and down the Westside Highway-always keeping stride with me. Then always kept close to the stroller when Ellery was born for those same (now nap time) walks.
It’s so hard some days to not have her here. She had the softest ears and was the BEST cleaner in town around meal times :) I can’t believe this baby we are about to have will never know her in person…but will most definitely hear ALL the stories. There’s so much I could write about our dear, Sophie Goose. How she was there since the beginning-since before there were kids, marriage, and even before M and I were living together! There through it all.
Soph, as we told E + E and ourselves, we have no doubt you are running around enjoying the sun, snacks and the company of all your friends who have passed before you. And I can promise you one thing-you will never be forgotten.
“Those who love each other are always connected by a very special string, made of love. Even though you can’t see it with your eyes, you can feel it deep in your heart, and know that you are always connected to the ones you love.” -The Invisible String